I go visit people at there residence, but people don't come see me.. I have an entire apartment that 5 people have come to see..and one girl hasn't been my favorite in a while (but we are growing back to like one another). So that is down to 4 people that have come to see me...one is a 3 year old (whom i love to death..my GODBABY). So that is down to 3 people that have come to see me..Pooh came with my Godbaby (heck she is 3 and can't drive and she is my BFF). so that is down to 2 people that have come to see me, RH helped me move in and then their is NAMELESS (oh, i think that name might stick with him). Where is everyone else?
I think that i am selfish at times. At many times... and i don't know why that is. In life, in relationships, in money and at work. Note that i said "at times." I want so much more than i have, and give what i can and no more..and i want my feelings to be consoled and my thoughts listened to. But i do listen to others. I dislike it greatly when people don't want to talk to me...I dislike it greatly when people don't hear me or listen to me...much in the same. I had NAMELESS tell me on several occassions that i only think about myself...well if you think about it.. who else will think about me, and care about my needs the way i will. Not saying i dont care about others and am their for them and what not, people i am... I am always there.. more than people actually want to point out. Maybe NAMELESS doesn't know what he is talking about.. i think that is what it is. That is why he will remain NAMELESS, and our memories will be POINTLESS. Ugh...
People people people... is this mic on ...the reason of my blogging is not to just talk about him. when you have something happen in your life you find how ironic things are about situations and events and somehow goes back to him. NAMELESS. The pain is there and it is real. The tears fill my pillow, but you know every morning will be different and i will be one step further away from RANDOMNESS and EMPTINESS. But i will try and keep my blogs away from just NAMESLESS to get my real points across... ugh.... the phone just rang...but... it... wasn't you. Am i really waiting for you to call to talk to me or just call so i can ignore you....try me.
I think that i am selfish at times. At many times... and i don't know why that is. In life, in relationships, in money and at work. Note that i said "at times." I want so much more than i have, and give what i can and no more..and i want my feelings to be consoled and my thoughts listened to. But i do listen to others. I dislike it greatly when people don't want to talk to me...I dislike it greatly when people don't hear me or listen to me...much in the same. I had NAMELESS tell me on several occassions that i only think about myself...well if you think about it.. who else will think about me, and care about my needs the way i will. Not saying i dont care about others and am their for them and what not, people i am... I am always there.. more than people actually want to point out. Maybe NAMELESS doesn't know what he is talking about.. i think that is what it is. That is why he will remain NAMELESS, and our memories will be POINTLESS. Ugh...
People people people... is this mic on ...the reason of my blogging is not to just talk about him. when you have something happen in your life you find how ironic things are about situations and events and somehow goes back to him. NAMELESS. The pain is there and it is real. The tears fill my pillow, but you know every morning will be different and i will be one step further away from RANDOMNESS and EMPTINESS. But i will try and keep my blogs away from just NAMESLESS to get my real points across... ugh.... the phone just rang...but... it... wasn't you. Am i really waiting for you to call to talk to me or just call so i can ignore you....try me.
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