
1,2,3,4 dang it i could have saved the money from Panera and eat at home... i just brought all the stuff the other day and i just wasted $3.45,6,7,8.... Did i just see ligthening, i wondering if someone else just saw that. I didn't know it was going to rain all day today. Should i get my hair done would that be a waste now that it is raining. 9,10,11,12,13...its ABs time.. i really can't think when i do this. All i was thinking if people are checking out my ABs, they look good and they are rock solid. To bad there are no men in this session today, maybe in Fridays class...well the instructors are men.. but they have children, 1, 2, and 3....Not my type at all. Did he just say hold that for 30 more seconds. Okay... Morgan Freeman.... (yep he just jumped in my mind) he has children and grandchildren...thats okay..he's married.
WE'RE DONE...Awesome- headed home to make some food and then off to the hairdresser. I hope this doesn't take all day
Breathe Breathe Breathe
By the second half of this work out, i am thinking about all this counting that i have to do on a daily basic and my mind wonders to counting on people and people counting on me. I didn't really have a solid thought about it, it was just there, looming over me like a rain cloud (IDK, i couldn't think of anything). I feel as though sometimes i am just here.. like no one really realizes on me for anything. I could do days and days and i would not have to answer to anyone. I know wouldn't. I test it somedays... my phone doesn't ring..it doesnt do anything. I want to be someones something...maybe not there everything but i want to feel as though i am here for a reason because for a space filler, a bill payer, and a worker. I need a change and i need it soon because this isn't it and its getting to me.
I BLOG BECAUSE ITS GETTING TO ME
