I don't understand why my life has pan out or better yet not panned out the way that i invisioned. the way that i spoke to GOD and prayed about when i was younger. I don't feel like i have done anything with my life. i sit her thinking about things i should do with my life and i continue to sit here. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i feel so alone in my life. i seem like i have no one there for me, the way i have been there for my friends. what did i do wrong and why do i continue to sit here without the motivation to do anything. i hurt more than anyone can imagine and i have problems expressing myself...

I feel used.... and i have let myself down more than i thought i could.

you know when you try and stop yourself from crying and your ears start to hurt and my throat starts to burn.. i have that feeling everyday

i shouldn't be alone...but i am.